What's not a surprise?
Well, that I blog about my life on the internet...so openly. That's not a surprise. Everyone says I think out loud...for a fact, I know I do. Thoughts don't really exist in my head in a complete FORMED thought until I talk them out. I know...I'm weird.
Number two not a surprise is the fact that, yesterday I could be dating someone...and, now... I could not be. You take that as you may. And...yes...>> you're right.
I'm just going to put a little interjection in here and say that I pray that the guy/man/boy...whatever... that I end up marrying one day will completely appreciate this blog for what it is...fun :)...because I'm a super open person. The fact is that I need a FORUM to express how I feel!! Do you understand what I mean? ;)
And how I feel is...I don't know...confusion. I'm super content in almost all areas of my life right now. Work is great, friends are superb, church is heavenly ;) and my bills are getting paid off! Besides that, I guess everything else is the same so I shouldn't be surprised.
But the fact is, that I haven't found a man that loves me for me! I have a wonderful brother that says I never stay with a guy long enough to let him know the real me...thanks, brother...you're awesome...and you're right...I need to put more effort into relationships and not just move on when they're not fun anymore.
And this last time, I really feel like I did! I feel that I put more effort into it this time than I ever have before. And, well that makes me feel good about myself...but also disappointed that it didn't bring more results...just more confusion. But...maybe next time? I have learned patience and effort are key. It's not always a cake walk people!...but I know it gets better :)
The fact is...I am who I am!! I'm fun, spontaneous, flirtatious, tall, blonde, old....er....*ha*, adventurous, smart and somewhat talented :). But I also have my negatives! I'm talkative (too much at times), overwhelming, impatient, opinionated, quick to react and I'm sure many other things! BUT I'm completely willing to work on these things. Some things make me...well...ME. I won't give those things up - not for anything or anyone. But, other things aren't as important! Although I like being talkative, sometimes it's overwhelming...there are pluses and negatives people. We all need to be willing to sacrifice to become our best selves. We can't hold on to those things about us that hold us back from becoming GREAT. A patient, loving, caring man makes me even greater and want to change those things about myself that aren't so great.
So, don't be afraid! Stop settling for the less-than-great you....because you're sublime...superb and there's always someone that loves you for you, and sees your potential! I love you for you...for sure ;)
You know, I was going to write a lot more...but I feel good about ending it on this note....
Answer me this!...
Who has made you even greater?...and how??